The Hot Stove
I was nineteen going on thirty-eight. I met him at a house party. The party was in an old Victorian on Mississippi Avenue on someone's birthday. The bodies, cheap vodka, and warm beer were everywhere. I went because a couch friend invited me, said it would be fun, and said I needed to "loosen up." Alcohol was served and I got pretty hammered.
He was aggressive but not violent. It was his goal to fuck me. I could read it on his face.
He was twenty-seven, tall, with a forgettable smile. He worked in tech, brought me a drink, then another. He talked as if he cared, asked about "my story," touched my arm, pretending it was accidental. I let him. I wanted to be seen, even if it was a lie.
Later, in an upstairs bedroom, his hands were everywhere, mouth on my neck, and my pants pulled down to my feet before I could decide if I wanted them there. I said yes because stopping felt harder than going along. He fucked me fast and rough. He'd been waiting for a chance like this all night. When he finished, he rolled off, pulled his jeans up, and patted me on my shoulder. He left the party without saying another word. That was losing my virginity. It didn't feel like losing anything. It felt as if something was taken away, thrust by thrust. I felt disgusting, dirty, and manhandled.
I laid there staring at the ceiling fan and felt stickiness between my legs... The room was spinning and I was feeling exactly like my mother must have every time she let a man use her to pay the rent. I threw up in the hallway bathroom, twice. I stumbled home alone at 4:30am, rain soaking through my thin jacket. I was dirty in a way soap couldn't fix.
I stayed in bed for two days, feverish, stomach churning, replaying it in my head until I hated the memory of his cologne, his grunts, and the way he didn't look at my face when he came. My life from motel rooms followed me here. No matter how far I ran, it was like I ended up on my back for someone else's convenience – someone else's gratification.
The women I've known seem to be looking for the best place to make the worst possible decision. It always came from men filled with alcohol and testosterone. We seem to find ourselves in the exact same places. The cycle never ends.
I touched the hot stove again. It wasn't the first time. I knew what was going to happen, but I did it anyway. This time was a little different... There was a hot pan on the stove. I thought about grabbing the hot pan instead, but why tempt fate. Lesson learned, right? Right? I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life apologizing for touching it, but if I did it again and again, maybe it wouldn't hurt as much the next time.
I never should have gone to that party. I shouldn't have gone to that room with him. I'm a perpetual victim. The hot stove metaphor is burned into every woman's psyche and it's unapologetic. Every time. I'm not venting, I'm sharing an indictment of the entire cultural script that keeps handing women the same burning pan and then blaming men when our fingers blister. The tragedy is a perfect script. A lifetime of self-apology while doing it anyway. It's not subtle. Never subtle. It's a slap to every woman's ego and every time we replay a bad night in our heads, it feels exactly the same, "I knew better. I did it again. When's the next party?"
Momma's Soul Deed
Hope (age eleven) sits cross-legged on her bed, knees pulled to her chest, staring at the yellowed piece of paper Ara has placed in her hands. The words are formal, old-fashioned, a little scary:
"I surrender my soul... perpetual custodial agreement... irrevocable..."
Notarized stamp. Alina's signature in careful, looping cursive. Ara's beneath it, steady and bold. Hope's eyes, those watcher eyes, move slowly across the page. She's quiet for a long time. Then she looks up at Ara, voice small but steady.
"I knew Momma Alina loves you more than anything. But... she gave you her soul?
Before I was even here?" Ara sits beside her, close enough that their shoulders touch.
"Yes, baby. She did. On Valentine's Day, the year before you and Aaron were born. She was nineteen. I was twenty-four. We were still figuring out how to be us. But she knew, even then, that her heart belonged with me. And she wanted the world to know it and in the only way she could think of that felt big enough."
Hope traces Alina's signature with one finger. "So... her soul is yours forever?"
Ara nods, eyes soft. "And mine is hers. We belong to each other in a way no one can take away. Not time. Not distance. Not even death."
Hope's brow furrows, the same thoughtful crease she gets when she's mapping constellations.
"But... I came out of you, Mommy. And Aaron came out of Momma Alina. And Daddy is both our Daddy. So we're all mixed up together anyway, right?"
Ara smiles, tears threatening. "Exactly. Blood, soul, love, it's all tangled. You and Aaron are twins but not by blood. Momma Alina and I are wives, but more than wives.
Daddy belongs to both of us, and we belong to him. And all eight of you belong to all three of us. No one gets left out."
Hope looks back at the paper. "So when Momma Alina gave you her soul... she was saying she'd never leave you. Even if things got hard." "Yes." Hope's voice drops to a whisper. "Like when I was in the hospital and Aaron wouldn't leave my side?" Ara's throat tightens. "Exactly like that." Hope leans into Ara's side, head on her shoulder.
"I think... I think souls are like stars. Some are born together. Some find each other across the dark. But once they're connected, the light keeps traveling even if one burns out first." Ara kisses the top of her head, tears falling now. "That's beautiful baby."
Hope is quiet again, then asks, "Can I keep this for a little while? To look at it?" Ara nods. "It's yours to hold whenever you need to remember how loved you are, how loved we all are." Hope folds the paper carefully, tucks it under her pillow. Then she wraps her arms around Ara's waist and holds on tight, anchoring both of them to the earth.
"Mommy?" "Ara replied, Yes?" "I'm glad Momma Alina gave you her soul. Because now it's big enough for all of us."
Ara holds her daughter close, heart breaking open in the best way. Outside, the stars begin to appear, one by one. Inside, a little girl who once fought for breath now holds proof that love is bigger than fear – it's enough – it's everything.
Weight and Wonder (2037)
Home appeared like a beacon as the truck turned onto their familiar street. Before Ara could even shift into park, the front door flew open. Isabella, eleven years old and a whirlwind of dark curls, came sprinting down the walkway.
"Momma's home!" she shrieked, launching herself toward the car.
Carlos followed close behind, his silver and grey hair catching the porch light. At sixty-seven he moved with the steady strength of a man who had spent decades carrying babies, chasing toddlers, and building a life worth protecting. He opened the back door of the truck and pulled both twins into a fierce hug, his voice thick with emotion.
"My girls. God, I missed you two."
Inside, joyful chaos reigned. The living room looked like a dollhouse had exploded in the best possible way, blankets draped into forts, dolls arranged in elaborate tea parties, tiny plastic plates scattered everywhere. Isabella tugged her big sisters over immediately.
"Look! Daddy and I made a whole neighborhood. This is the bakery, and this is the school where the dolls learn about wolves and stars."
Carlos stood back, watching with quiet pride as the girls dropped to their knees to admire Isabella's creations. He had played every role without hesitation.
Later that evening, Isabella shuffled off toward bedtime routines. Adalyn curled up on the big sectional beside her mothers. Evelyn sat across from them, legs tucked under her.
"Did Daddy play like that with us?" Adalyn asked softly. "When we were younger?"
Ara's smile was immediate and radiant. "Every single day. You two were a surprise, you know. We thought we were done after Calista. Maybe just one more, if any. And then, two beautiful girls at once, two years later."
"He cried happy tears the day you were born," Ara added. "Said it felt like the universe was giving him back something precious after... well. After everything."
Alina laughed, the sound warm and full of memory. "Carlos was beside himself. He carried both of you at the same time for months, one in each arm like it was the most natural thing in the world. He'd sing to both of you, old songs his grandmother taught him. Sometimes he'd just sit in the rocking chair holding you both while you slept, like he couldn't believe you were real."
.....
Later that night, the house had settled into its familiar quiet rhythm. Carlos sat on the edge of Isabella's bed, tucking her in. The twins stood quietly in the doorway, watching.
"Will you tell me Bardo's story again?"
"Of course." Carlos's voice wrapped around Isabella like a soft blanket as he brushed a curl from her forehead.
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